torstai 11. elokuuta 2011

Art of saying goodbye

Two weeks and one day/ 360 hours/ 21 600 minutes/ 1 296 000 seconds and then I'm off!

"It was a rainy day in the far away land where the princess lived. The days before that day had been so joyfull and full of expectations. Maybe it was the dark sky or the raindrops on the castles window but suddenly, the princess felt a lump on her throat. The princess knew right away what that lump meaned; sadness and longing. For she had experienced that feeling many times, it was part of learning of being a queen of hearts. For you see, the queen of hearts was the type who locked things in her heart and wanted to put on a strong facade for the sake of others. She didn't want others to feel sad only because of the life choises she had made."

From tomorrow on, I have to start saying the goodbyes for everyone. I know it 's going to be hard again, but for some reason, I have always felt that saying goodbyes isn't a bad thing. We say goodbye so that someday we could meet again.  

torstai 4. elokuuta 2011


23 days left and then bonjour ! First I'm off to Paris, Charles de Gaulle, and then alas, I can finally kiss the beautiful land under my lovely feet! Japan, Japan!

Meanwhile in Finland... I've been arranging stuff like crazy! First I had to say goodbye for my beloved apartment and now I've been on the phone 24/7 calling the insurance company, bank, mobilephone operator etc. Not to say, I should finnish my summer studies. Whew! And the best part in making arrangements is shopping the new things. You don't expect me to go to the land of my dreams unprepared? No, no. A girl needs to be well-prepaired for a journey of a lifetime, so a new lip gloss (I'll be adding while waiting for my flight on airport) won't hurt anybody except my wallet...yikes!
 And in case you didn't know, I should be saving money instead of spending it. God help me. 

Ja 23 päivää jäljellä Suomessa ja sitten bonjour! Lennän Pariisin kautta Japaniin, ja viimein saan nähdä taas rakkaan Japanini, nam!

Tällä välin Suomessa... Olen järjestellyt asioita kuin pieni orava! Ensin minun täytyi muuttaa muutama viikko sitten pois asunnostani, ja sitten alkoi muu rumba viisumista lähtien, ja entäs sitten ne kesäopinnot, voi apua, että verkkokurssi ei just nyt nappaa! Mut sen sijaan uusien, täysin välttämättömien tavaroiden shoppailu nappaa! Sillä ettekai vain oleta minun palaavan Japaniin tyhjin käsin? Ei, ei, kyllä minä aion varautua kaikkeen tälle matkalle, joten yksi huulikiille, jota voin lisäillä lentokentällä odottaakseni viehkeänä lentoani, ei satuta ketään paitsi...kukkaroani.
Ja jos et sattunut tietämään, minä säästän rahaa tätä matkaa varten. Tällä kertaa. Kyllä, säästän rahaa ensimmäistä kertaa elämässäni ja se on...tuskallista.

keskiviikko 16. maaliskuuta 2011

My heart

In my heart, I think, I knew all the time that I'd be going to Japan. And it seems, that's where I'm being leaded to.

"Princess, a queen of hearts-to-be, was so happy that day. So happy indeed, that she spent all day laughing and crying out of pure joy. She danced and she swirled. In her little castle, in a far away country, she painted hearts and she painted the future ahead of her. All she sees now, is pink."

I'm really looking forward for my future, but living in the moment is the best. I'll be enjoying the most out of this coming spring and summer. I'll work hard and receive the price when I'll land to Japan next Fall.

Today, my heart is filled with joy. But the last days it has been full of sorrow because of what happened on Friday 11th of March. Being this far away, I feel weak and faint. All I can do, is pray.

Luulen, että sydämessäni oli koko prosessin ajan varmuus siitä, että elämä kuljettaa minut Japaniin.

Odotan todella, mitä tulevaisuus tuo tullessaan, mutta elän juuri tätä hetkeä, ja että se maistuu makealle. Makeuden sekaan, on kuitenkin sekoittanut karvautta, sillä katastroofi, mikä koetteli Japania viime perjantaina mursi sydämeni täydellisesti. Itkin, ja olen varma, että Taivaskin itki.

tiistai 22. helmikuuta 2011

Being a queen of hearts

"A queen of hearts is the type of queen who follows her heart. But following ones heart is again another difficult issue. How can one be sure that the heart is pure and leading to the right decisions?"

Well, this girl  is now in a situation where something is being decided for her. My adventure will lead me either to Japan or to Malaysia. My hearts choise is Japan but you never know what life has treasured ahead of you.
I have done all that I could, and now all is to wait.

No, nyt tämä tyttö on joutunut sellaiseen päätöksen eteen, johon ei voi itse loppujen lopuksi vaikuttaa. Seikkailuni johtaa minut Japaniin tai Malesiaan. Sydämessäni toivon, että pääsisin Japaniin, mutta odotan kuitenkin innolla, miten elämä minut yllättää. Olen tehnyt osani, ja nyt voin vain odottaa.

lauantai 15. tammikuuta 2011


"Once upon a time, there was a little princess.
She lived in a very quiet, small town where everybody knew each other and peculiar things almost never happened. Or when they did, they were the type which you should not talk about. The little princess was really happy. Her parents, the queen and the king loved her, and she had a blooming childhood. Full of laughter and fairytales.

The princess did always well in her life. She managed the school properly and always dreamed big. She was always told that her dreams would come true. She will find her prince charming, and they will live happily ever after.

The days flew by and the princess ventured true her days, waiting miraculous things to happen.  And many times miraculous and special things did happen. The day came that the princess had grown up, she had already left the small town and her parents safe castle behind. Now she started to notice, that people were starting to expect things from her. She was already supposed to know, what kind of queen she would be? The queen of hearts, or perhaps the queen of diamonds? Both were very promising and desired. But the princess herself wasn't quite sure. She had always dreamed of many things, of many fortunes. She had actually always though that things would settle, she would know when the time would come.

The princess had always been very cheerful and optimistic. So optimistic indeed, that she had gone with the wind so far, that she was amazed herself,  how had she ended up in this new world at all. And a new world it was. The world of adults. Adulthood is very a complicated world you see, full of haste and decisions. It was time for the princess to make the decision. She would be the queen of hearts. But wait! She realized that how could she be a queen without a king? How indeed?"